Having two boys and being a single mother can be hard sometimes, I have two handsome boys I do love them more than anyone would know but there are times when I seem to lose myself and my heart races so fast that I have a hard time breathing. Like today everything was going good the boys were playing outside enjoying the nice weather. Then it is time to come in and sit down to eat (which of course everyday goes well till a certain time and then BAM an outburst) today was more of a laid back day so let’s just say he through a fit over what he had to eat for dinner. When this happens I just get so quick to anger (which we know it says not to in the KJV Bible) anyways I walked away went to my room to pray while my kids sat at the table one enjoying the meal the other whining. I came back my heart no longer in my throat beating so fast making my breaths easier to take, I told him that he can eat what I made because he is not getting anything else to eat and left it at that. So he took a few bits and was done. When days like this come it hurts me so bad because I am human and do get upset but also because when I get upset it shows and I feel like I failed as being a mom! I truly love my boys they are the gifts from God to me and I cherish it. But it’s just so hard sometimes to have to look at my kids when they do wrong, whine, throw tantrums, I thank God every day for getting me through these hard times and the bad feelings I sometime get about myself. I am a good mom and teach my boys about the Lord and the right things to do versus the wrong but hey everyone has those off days when the day is going good and SMASH you turn into a wall (a child decides to act out).
Here are a few verses worth remembering:
A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.
The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.
A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but he that is slow to anger appeaseth strife.
Wherefore, my beloved brethren let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:
For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.
So there will always be times when someone you know or do not know will test you and all you or I have to do is remember these versus. Because even though I do get angry I pray and the Lord calms me down. So just remember the Lord is always with us and can help us through anything from a child throwing a fit to a family or friend getting you upset by laying your clean clothes on the floor or not doing what they should have. No matter the reason always I MEAN ALWAYS take your worries and problems to the Lord he is our Savior and wants us to rely on him first!