Sunday, February 20, 2011

Have you ever heard the angels sing . . .?

   Have you ever heard the angels sing . . .?
Because today I did hear them,
As I sat in my favorite phew at church the 5 phew on the far right,
I heard the piano playing,
This amazing woman sat there playing this most wonderful sound,
It was like angels singing a heavenly song.
I look at this woman I see how God has filled her heart and soul,
You can see and hear the emotion and love she puts into the music,
I lower my head and close my eyes,
I listen to the piano play and hear each different key make such a wonderful note to add to the song,
The sound so soft and delicate,
A blessing of its own,
As I am sitting there with my eyes closed I feel the presence of the Lord,
 I know he is listening and seeing this person play so passionately for him,
 She plays for the Lord,
It even gives a blessing to those who listen as well.
I know that when I hear those fingers touch the keys that make a different note,
Those notes turn into a song which makes music,
A heavenly sound, heavenly music!

Friday, February 18, 2011


So it seems like every morning I get lazier and lazier, not wanting to get up and not wanting to get dressed. It’s these winter days I just want to stay in bed and curl up with a book or movie and not move. I am more of a summer girl myself up at the crack of dawn, waiting to do something in the sun. I guess this is what I get for moving to Montana where you get every season there is…
Do not get me wrong I love Montana in the summer, spring and fall (sometimes). I love my time that I have in the summer, when we can float the rivers, go to the parks and get wet, that is the great thing about Montana parks they have water set in almost every park in town. So we can play on the playgrounds or get wet in the water park set ups.
But back to the point I am an active person in most of the seasons except winter, I am like a bear I roam around in the seasons but when fall starts to turn into winter good night to all. I mean come one who really wants to go out into the cold all the time, especially when you have to drive in the snow. I get tired of trying to not get stuck in the snow and when I do I have to try to get out of it but as many times as I do get stuck in all the snow that seems to fall makes me want to stay inside even more.
So I am a bear I hibernate and become lazy, that is when the Lord comes in and kicks me. I am reminded that I need to get up and move on, the Lord is always with me pushing me forward, to hold my hand, and even give me the extra pep I need in my day. Lord you help us all out of the lazy moments, angry moments, jealous moments, lustful moments and so much more.
I praise you and give thanks for you being by my side even when I think I am alone, you never leave me or forsake me Lord.


Thursday, February 17, 2011


The white fluffy crystal ice, falling down from the clouds,
As I stand by the window,
I see trees covered with pure white fluffiness,
The tall tree with pine needles are covered with snow,
But still able to make out the green on the needles of the tree,
The ground covered like a blanket covering an infant,
So soft and pure,
I see this beautiful sight,
I walk to the door unlock it and open it up,
I walk outside; right there I feel it,
The soft cold wind and fluffy flakes falling on my face,
 A cold chill runs through me,
Starting on my arms,
Up to my shoulders then down my back to my legs,
As the chills slowly die away what remains are tiny goose bumps,
When I see the snow I hear a certain song play,
“Are your garments spotless? Are they white as snow? Are you washed in the blood of the Lamb?”
“Lay aside the garments that are stained with sin and be washed in the blood of the Lamb”
I hear these two different versus of the song in my head,
As the spotless white snowflakes fall,
 I know that I am as white as snow,
The Lord is wonderful for he is the Almighty and creator of all,
As I stand looking at the cold but beautiful creations around me,
I Thank the Lord for ALL.

Monday, February 14, 2011


LOVE where do I begin . . .
There are so many different types of LOVE . . .
LOVE for a friend . . .
LOVE for family . . .
LOVE for the Lord . . .
Where does LOVE all start . . .

I LOVE my boys,
Blonde hair, brown eyes, 36lbs, when he was born on July 2005 he was so small, this full term little boy 5lbs 7 ½ ounces it was the happiest I have ever been in my life. Here I am a sinner with the feeling that I was alone in the world (I knew of Jesus but I backslide). Holding this little gift from God no matter how it came about looking into those eyes so curious and taking in this new place. Is this what LOVE is? My heart pounding not knowing if I should cry or smile with all the joy in my heart, I was holding this little red angel, wearing preemie clothes. This was my child, my son God knew the hurt and the pain I must have endured and even though I was a sinner the Lord still loved me and knowing my heart I was given a chance to know what Love was. Ten little fingers and ten little toes, two brown eyes and a little nose, God put together this precious gift with LOVE and care.

Blonde hair, Blue eyes, 34lbs, born on November 2006 I was handed this bundled little baby full of black hair with a semi pointy nose. As I looked into the blue eyes that were glazed over looking at me I felt a joy that made me feel like I was floating in the air with this little infant holding my finger staring at me and no one else. God you have blessed my life with another little boy to watch and teach your ways. I was so excited to know that the Lord knew my heart and had/has his own plan for me in my life. With this little gift 7 ½lbs and 12 ½ ounces of white meat bundled up in this striped blanket our bond our LOVE, I knew my life was going to change in a big way. Now this little boy has grown into the smartest, most handsome boy I could have asked for. A smile from him could melt your heart and make you want to do back flips.

LOVE . . .
This feeling to protect, weave out the bad and in the good, this feeling that overwhelms my soul to be right and do good to show others. This is LOVE no flying hearts, no cupid, no chocolate, no nothing could cause such a feeling but God. The Lord Jesus Christ is the only thing, before my boys where born there was this hole in my heart. I was not willing to let anyone in, I was living with Mrs. M and because of the M family I heard the words of the Lord. My father tried to tell me his words but I was just to hurt by my own family I could not listen. Mrs. M took me in and we went to church I heard the words was starting to grow, but the devil found his way back saw my interest increase. Well he won, I ended up moving away that hole in my heart felt whole then it left. It took a while but I won over the devil (who I still fight to this day), my heart the feeling of loneliness, hate, sorrow, feeling of worthlessness, trash, and so much more slowly started disappearing. The reason for that I give unto the Lord, he slowly filled up my heart with his LOVE but also the LOVE of others he has brought into my life. My boys, my friends, and my family plus Brothers and Sisters in Christ I give thanks to the Lord Our God for all the LOVE he has brought even his own LOVE for a sinner like me!

Fellowship . . .

Cold winter breeze brushing on my face as we glide across the ice with our brown leather, scratched up, used skates that seem to wear out your feet when they are used. The feeling of such joyous fellowship with close family in Christ, these precious friends I truly love. While skating we look at one another with our pink checks flowing into a wonderful smile, talking about what the day holds for us and the week to come as we zig and zag through the unknown skaters on the ice. Then as I wait near the middle of the ice watching the skaters glide on the ice like angel in the sky, I see it all in slow motion right foot left foot right foot again and continue. Then you see those new skaters who hold on to the walls or a hand of a friend, (which was me not long ago).
I see couples, friends and even families just gathering and having a fun time with one another; these days are such joy, beginning able to fellowship whit the one we are close with. God has blessed me with such great brother’s and sisters in Christ to fellowship with. That purple jacket she wears sometimes with her brown oh so curly hair, beautiful eyes and a smile that could kill a man with one look, she is like her own hockey player the way she move even though she has no experience as a hockey player (at least that what she thinks sometimes) she gets low and starts to skate so fast as I watch her make huge circles around me I just stand in amazement on how focused and how determined this teen is. She is such an honest and sweet friend and she is a great blessing to have in mine and my kid’s life as well.
Then I look around and spot her is her brown jacket the same one I have but mine is gray, her jacket has the fur still attacked her hands in her pocket just skating along and enjoying the fun time. As I look the other way the next thing I know I have someone pushing me to wear my skates slide a little forward on the solid water (ice). I catch myself from falling and there she is Miss Brown jacket with her huge laughing looks, light brownish blonde wavy hair with and bubbly personality. She is just like me serious when we want to be and a big goof ball a big part of the time, She is a blessing in my life as well she is very bright, is not afraid to mess around and be herself she is the life of the party. God brought such a beautiful person to brighten up my life.
As we all three stand in the middle we look to the left and see the one woman who raised these fine girls to be what and who they are now. She has taken in such a person as me that I know this woman is the most amazing person. She is funny, caring, most warm hearted, God fearing woman I know and proud to have these people in my life.
Over the years I have had so many great and not so great people go in and out of my life, but now I have found a place that I love with great friends and people I have adopted into my very own family. Mrs. S and her awesome girls whom I adore have been a blessing to me when we talk, text, hangout from hangout at their home to skating or whatever it may be they have blessed me and my boys lives and that is what fellowship is. To be with one’s who care, have a friendly relationship, the same and not the same interest and even believe in the same thing. God does things for a reason and he has blessed us all with the option to choose what to believe and whom to spend your time with. How you choose is up to you I hope that all believe “God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16
We fellowship with one’s that know the truth and we talk and praise and worship our Lord Jesus Christ, because of him we are able to receive such a marvelous free gift. I am glad I accepted the free gift and I hope one day you will too.

Fellowship: Friendly relationship; companionship; communion, as between members of the same church; similar tastes and or interest, etc.
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