Ashamed and Overcoming…

Ashamed and Overcoming…

What does this word mean to you?

Romans 12:17 – 21

Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men,

If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.

Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head.

Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.

Psalm 119: 6

Then shall I not be ashamed, when I have respect unto all thy commandments.

Psalm 119:46

I will speak to thy testimonies also before Kings, and will not be ashamed.

Psalm 119:116

Uphold me according unto thy word, that I may live; and let me not be ashamed of my hope.

I choose this because we as people try to overcome obstacles in our lives but do we ever overcome anger, revenge, hatred, I think this is something worth doing.

We all should look at how David and goliath went down; David overcame one obstacle in his life and was not ashamed of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. David was made fun of by others and was told he would be crushed but he had faith and was not ashamed to tell it to other and show his devotion. He steps forward to fight goliath to show him that our Lord is more powerful then he will ever be. He loved and feared Our Lord Jesus and went to goliath and overcame what no one was able to do…

There are two things I am referring to that we as Christians should do:

1.       To not be ashamed to spread the word and live as Christians should.

We as Christians should live our lives for the Lord so we can lead others to the Lord as well, I know I want to bear my own fruit so that when I get to heaven I will know I helped others to get there or plant a seed in them.

2.      To overcome evil that we may come across in life and as good witnesses in Jesus Christ.

We as Christians should not seek revenge if we were wronged against, hurt or even angered. I know it seems hard to not want to get back at someone, but the Lord does tell us in Romans 12: 19 “Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.” And we may think we should but the Lord will repay them more then we could ever do. Not that I am telling you that the Lord will harm someone but we do not know when or how but he will repay them for that wrong doing, so we need to remember if we feel that need for revenge then we should put it on the Lord to handle and just move forward as believers in Christ.

I say this because we accepted Jesus into our hearts we should act as Christians, meaning act as Christ did by following his words and commandments. By showing others who he was and what he did for all of us no matter the race, size shape, ethnicity Jesus died on the cross for all our sins!

There are those times . . .

Having two boys and being a single mother can be hard sometimes, I have two handsome boys I do love them more than anyone would know but there are times when I seem to lose myself and my heart races so fast that I have a hard time breathing. Like today everything was going good the boys were playing outside enjoying the nice weather. Then it is time to come in and sit down to eat (which of course everyday goes well till a certain time and then BAM an outburst) today was more of a laid back day so let’s just say he through a fit over what he had to eat for dinner. When this happens I just get so quick to anger (which we know it says not to in the KJV Bible) anyways I walked away went to my room to pray while my kids sat at the table one enjoying the meal the other whining. I came back my heart no longer in my throat beating so fast making my breaths easier to take, I told him that he can eat what I made because he is not getting anything else to eat and left it at that. So he took a few bits and was done. When days like this come it hurts me so bad because I am human and do get upset but also because when I get upset it shows and I feel like I failed as being a mom! I truly love my boys they are the gifts from God to me and I cherish it. But it’s just so hard sometimes to have to look at my kids when they do wrong, whine, throw tantrums, I thank God every day for getting me through these hard times and the bad feelings I sometime get about myself. I am a good mom and teach my boys about the Lord and the right things to do versus the wrong but hey everyone has those off days when the day is going good and SMASH you turn into a wall (a child decides to act out).

Here are a few verses worth remembering:

Proverbs 15:1

A soft answer turneth away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger.

Proverbs 15:3

The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.

Proverbs 15:18

A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but he that is slow to anger appeaseth strife.

James 1:19-20

Wherefore, my beloved brethren let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:

For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.

So there will always be times when someone you know or do not know will test you and all you or I have to do is remember these versus. Because even though I do get angry I pray and the Lord calms me down. So just remember the Lord is always with us and can help us through anything from a child throwing a fit to a family or friend getting you upset by laying your clean clothes on the floor or not doing what they should have. No matter the reason always I MEAN ALWAYS take your worries and problems to the Lord he is our Savior and wants us to rely on him first!

My oldest

My Youngest



I might not be the best but . . .

I might not be the best person,

I might not be the best Christian,

I might not have the best testimony

But I will do my Best because

The Lord loves me no matter what!

2 Corinthians 5:17-18

Therefore if any man be in Christ,

he is a new creature:

old things are passed away;

Behold, all things are become new.

And all things are of God,

who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ,

and hath given to us the ministry or reconciliation;

Because I am a sinner I believe on the Lord Jesus Christ

He died for my sins!

I am washed in the blood of the Lamb,

I have asked the Lord to come into my heart

and to save me from myself (the flesh) and this world!!!

NOTW – Not Of This World

A good versus to memorizes

Isaiah 55:8-9

For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

Neither are your ways my ways,

Saith the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth,

So are my ways higher than your ways,

And my thoughts than your thoughts.

The Lord God Almighty is and should be our

 first in line of our hearts and mind.

Jesus first

Others second

Ourselves last

Have you ever heard the angels sing . . .?

   Have you ever heard the angels sing . . .?

Because today I did hear them,

As I sat in my favorite phew at church the 5 phew on the far right,

I heard the piano playing,

This amazing woman sat there playing this most wonderful sound,

It was like angels singing a heavenly song.

I look at this woman I see how God has filled her heart and soul,

You can see and hear the emotion and love she puts into the music,

I lower my head and close my eyes,

I listen to the piano play and hear each different key make such a wonderful note to add to the song,

The sound so soft and delicate,

A blessing of its own,

As I am sitting there with my eyes closed I feel the presence of the Lord,

 I know he is listening and seeing this person play so passionately for him,

 She plays for the Lord,

It even gives a blessing to those who listen as well.

I know that when I hear those fingers touch the keys that make a different note,

Those notes turn into a song which makes music,

A heavenly sound, heavenly music!

Laziness

So it seems like every morning I get lazier and lazier, not wanting to get up and not wanting to get dressed. It’s these winter days I just want to stay in bed and curl up with a book or movie and not move. I am more of a summer girl myself up at the crack of dawn, waiting to do something in the sun. I guess this is what I get for moving to Montana where you get every season there is…

Do not get me wrong I love Montana in the summer, spring and fall (sometimes). I love my time that I have in the summer, when we can float the rivers, go to the parks and get wet, that is the great thing about Montana parks they have water set in almost every park in town. So we can play on the playgrounds or get wet in the water park set ups.

But back to the point I am an active person in most of the seasons except winter, I am like a bear I roam around in the seasons but when fall starts to turn into winter good night to all. I mean come one who really wants to go out into the cold all the time, especially when you have to drive in the snow. I get tired of trying to not get stuck in the snow and when I do I have to try to get out of it but as many times as I do get stuck in all the snow that seems to fall makes me want to stay inside even more.

So I am a bear I hibernate and become lazy, that is when the Lord comes in and kicks me. I am reminded that I need to get up and move on, the Lord is always with me pushing me forward, to hold my hand, and even give me the extra pep I need in my day. Lord you help us all out of the lazy moments, angry moments, jealous moments, lustful moments and so much more.

I praise you and give thanks for you being by my side even when I think I am alone, you never leave me or forsake me Lord.

THANK YOU!!!

THROUGH MY EYES . . .

The white fluffy crystal ice, falling down from the clouds,

As I stand by the window,

I see trees covered with pure white fluffiness,

The tall tree with pine needles are covered with snow,

But still able to make out the green on the needles of the tree,

The ground covered like a blanket covering an infant,

So soft and pure,

I see this beautiful sight,

I walk to the door unlock it and open it up,

I walk outside; right there I feel it,

The soft cold wind and fluffy flakes falling on my face,

 A cold chill runs through me,

Starting on my arms,

Up to my shoulders then down my back to my legs,

As the chills slowly die away what remains are tiny goose bumps,

When I see the snow I hear a certain song play,

“Are your garments spotless? Are they white as snow? Are you washed in the blood of the Lamb?”

“Lay aside the garments that are stained with sin and be washed in the blood of the Lamb”

I hear these two different versus of the song in my head,

As the spotless white snowflakes fall,

 I know that I am as white as snow,

The Lord is wonderful for he is the Almighty and creator of all,

As I stand looking at the cold but beautiful creations around me,

I Thank the Lord for ALL.

LOVE

LOVE where do I begin . . .

There are so many different types of LOVE . . .

LOVE for a friend . . .

LOVE for family . . .

LOVE for the Lord . . .

Where does LOVE all start . . .

I LOVE my boys,

Blonde hair, brown eyes, 36lbs, when he was born on July 2005 he was so small, this full term little boy 5lbs 7 ½ ounces it was the happiest I have ever been in my life. Here I am a sinner with the feeling that I was alone in the world (I knew of Jesus but I backslide). Holding this little gift from God no matter how it came about looking into those eyes so curious and taking in this new place. Is this what LOVE is? My heart pounding not knowing if I should cry or smile with all the joy in my heart, I was holding this little red angel, wearing preemie clothes. This was my child, my son God knew the hurt and the pain I must have endured and even though I was a sinner the Lord still loved me and knowing my heart I was given a chance to know what Love was. Ten little fingers and ten little toes, two brown eyes and a little nose, God put together this precious gift with LOVE and care.

Blonde hair, Blue eyes, 34lbs, born on November 2006 I was handed this bundled little baby full of black hair with a semi pointy nose. As I looked into the blue eyes that were glazed over looking at me I felt a joy that made me feel like I was floating in the air with this little infant holding my finger staring at me and no one else. God you have blessed my life with another little boy to watch and teach your ways. I was so excited to know that the Lord knew my heart and had/has his own plan for me in my life. With this little gift 7 ½lbs and 12 ½ ounces of white meat bundled up in this striped blanket our bond our LOVE, I knew my life was going to change in a big way. Now this little boy has grown into the smartest, most handsome boy I could have asked for. A smile from him could melt your heart and make you want to do back flips.

LOVE . . .

This feeling to protect, weave out the bad and in the good, this feeling that overwhelms my soul to be right and do good to show others. This is LOVE no flying hearts, no cupid, no chocolate, no nothing could cause such a feeling but God. The Lord Jesus Christ is the only thing, before my boys where born there was this hole in my heart. I was not willing to let anyone in, I was living with Mrs. M and because of the M family I heard the words of the Lord. My father tried to tell me his words but I was just to hurt by my own family I could not listen. Mrs. M took me in and we went to church I heard the words was starting to grow, but the devil found his way back saw my interest increase. Well he won, I ended up moving away that hole in my heart felt whole then it left. It took a while but I won over the devil (who I still fight to this day), my heart the feeling of loneliness, hate, sorrow, feeling of worthlessness, trash, and so much more slowly started disappearing. The reason for that I give unto the Lord, he slowly filled up my heart with his LOVE but also the LOVE of others he has brought into my life. My boys, my friends, and my family plus Brothers and Sisters in Christ I give thanks to the Lord Our God for all the LOVE he has brought even his own LOVE for a sinner like me!

Fellowship . . .

Cold winter breeze brushing on my face as we glide across the ice with our brown leather, scratched up, used skates that seem to wear out your feet when they are used. The feeling of such joyous fellowship with close family in Christ, these precious friends I truly love. While skating we look at one another with our pink checks flowing into a wonderful smile, talking about what the day holds for us and the week to come as we zig and zag through the unknown skaters on the ice. Then as I wait near the middle of the ice watching the skaters glide on the ice like angel in the sky, I see it all in slow motion right foot left foot right foot again and continue. Then you see those new skaters who hold on to the walls or a hand of a friend, (which was me not long ago).

I see couples, friends and even families just gathering and having a fun time with one another; these days are such joy, beginning able to fellowship whit the one we are close with. God has blessed me with such great brother’s and sisters in Christ to fellowship with. That purple jacket she wears sometimes with her brown oh so curly hair, beautiful eyes and a smile that could kill a man with one look, she is like her own hockey player the way she move even though she has no experience as a hockey player (at least that what she thinks sometimes) she gets low and starts to skate so fast as I watch her make huge circles around me I just stand in amazement on how focused and how determined this teen is. She is such an honest and sweet friend and she is a great blessing to have in mine and my kid’s life as well.

Then I look around and spot her is her brown jacket the same one I have but mine is gray, her jacket has the fur still attacked her hands in her pocket just skating along and enjoying the fun time. As I look the other way the next thing I know I have someone pushing me to wear my skates slide a little forward on the solid water (ice). I catch myself from falling and there she is Miss Brown jacket with her huge laughing looks, light brownish blonde wavy hair with and bubbly personality. She is just like me serious when we want to be and a big goof ball a big part of the time, She is a blessing in my life as well she is very bright, is not afraid to mess around and be herself she is the life of the party. God brought such a beautiful person to brighten up my life.

As we all three stand in the middle we look to the left and see the one woman who raised these fine girls to be what and who they are now. She has taken in such a person as me that I know this woman is the most amazing person. She is funny, caring, most warm hearted, God fearing woman I know and proud to have these people in my life.

Over the years I have had so many great and not so great people go in and out of my life, but now I have found a place that I love with great friends and people I have adopted into my very own family. Mrs. S and her awesome girls whom I adore have been a blessing to me when we talk, text, hangout from hangout at their home to skating or whatever it may be they have blessed me and my boys lives and that is what fellowship is. To be with one’s who care, have a friendly relationship, the same and not the same interest and even believe in the same thing. God does things for a reason and he has blessed us all with the option to choose what to believe and whom to spend your time with. How you choose is up to you I hope that all believe “God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16

We fellowship with one’s that know the truth and we talk and praise and worship our Lord Jesus Christ, because of him we are able to receive such a marvelous free gift. I am glad I accepted the free gift and I hope one day you will too.



Fellowship: Friendly relationship; companionship; communion, as between members of the same church; similar tastes and or interest, etc.